I don’t normally include much personal stuff in my blog but maybe I am not sure what else to write about today.
Adding in a few photographs already on my blog to break up the text.
I think I have been through three phases since this going into lockdown. Of course I have had a couple more weeks than most people because of my cold, though at that point, being a cautious soul and risk adverse, I had practically decided to initiate my own encounter avoidance scheme.
The first phase was “disorientation”: way out of my comfort zone, missing my normal routine and social contacts.
The second phase was “reaching out”: deciding that at least I could engage through the blogsphere, following more blogs and writing more posts.
The third phase that I feel I have now entered is “resignation”: accepting that this is going to go on for a long, long time, seeing that the graphs instead of plummeting seem to be leveling out. Sinking deep inside myself and my life, looking for a sense of purpose.
I think the only things that have ever given me a sense of purpose are helping people and being creative. bringing up a family fulfilled both those purposes and was my happiest time.
Well helping people is difficult at present so I am concentrating on the creativity. My main creativity is concerned with my latest project and focusing on that stops me thinking about all that I cannot do. But in the meantime, I haven’t much else to share so if I seem quiet that is why.