………………..Master of none.
That is pretty much what I am.
Sometimes I wonder if I should actually concentrate on one thing and become good at it instead.
As a child I would follow my parents around interested in all that they did.
The first thing I learnt from my father was to love poetry. Later I learnt to take photographs and also to develop black and white film and then enlarge and print from the negatives. I also learnt to use a screwdriver, hammer and saw, (not too good with the saw so I passed on the lesson on how to use a chisel!) wire a plug, put up a shelf and similar tasks.
From my mother I learnt to cook and sew and knit and crochet. She also let me use her oil paints. She didn’t teach me how to use a sweeping brush though and was rather cross that I didn’t know instinctively. I had to teach myself when I was first married.
Over the years I picked up a bit of plumbing and how to repair an electric cooker as well as other DIY tasks.
Now all these things have been very useful, especially when your husband leaves you with three children aged 4 to 8 and a large Victorian house to look after. So I have been grateful for my jackdaw mind and desire to know a bit of everything.
I look at other people’s blogs and see how good they are at things and feel that I should have concentrated on being better at something.
The big question is what do I choose?
Then I look at my Blog.
I started out seeing it as a place to share my crochet and knitting projects, especially any patterns I might come up with. This has certainly happened and I am getting about 150 page views a day at present and a large proportion of them are for my patterns. Especially my cross bookmarks at present.
But I have moved on to include some of my favourite recipes with a link in the top menu and not only included posts that are based simply on the photographs I took on some particular outing but recently have included some that take a more serious look at photography.
And now I am even beginning to include some of my poems!
Why can’t I focus on one thing? My mind seems to be always going in so many directions at once.
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This post has been on my mind for some time now and I hope you don’t mind me sharing my difficulties with you.
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When I started writing this post I think at this point that it would have gone in an entirely different direction but it has come to me the last couple of days that I am seeing things all wrong!
I am a fan of Formula 1 and I admire the drivers who have a special talent and give their lives to achieving excellence in this one area but that is not me!
I don’t have ‘a special talent’ and I enjoy dabbling in many things.
When I was a child my parents, expecially my father, brought me up to be a perfectionist and to think that if one’s achievements didn’t rank along with the best that they were worth nothing. Up to now I have accepted this but I can see, that right or wrong, I need to change.
Maybe being ‘a jack of all trades’ is not bad if it is what you choose. I am so afraid of not measuring up to other people’s standards. I live alone but it is all the time as if people are looking over my shoulder and criticising everything I do. I can see that I need to stop living like this.
So I hope you that follow my blog don’t mind if it is an ecelctic mix of all sorts of things and if my preference is for easy fun things rather than a pursuit of excellence.